harvest (?) - hope

hope (by deav)
Rio, Jun 2003
(harvest?)

one minute you were here
the center of my life
though i didn’t think of that all the time
the other you were gone, taken away
i didn’t figure out why till today

i regret i took you for granted
watching you grow up
was something so certain
it’s hard to realize
your image is vanishing
your picture tells me
it’s nobody’s fault but mine

sorry it’s been so long
that for an hour or so
i manage to forget you
but then i remember
what it is to walk in the world
with a hole
where there used to be a heart

sometimes i wake up from a dream
where i was holding you again
i just keep on searching
i wonder what keeps me going
it’s hope, just hope

i wonder if all of this will ever be over
the worst thing is not knowing
i confess sometimes
i wish i got bad news
what kind of person have i become?

sorry it’s been so long
that for an hour or so
i manage to forget you
but then i remember
what it is to walk in the world
with a hole where there used to be a heart

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