the right setlist

b>Set: Long Road, Las Exit, Animal, Do The Evolution, Green Disease, Jeremy, Grievance, Cropduster, Even Flow, Betterman, State Of Love And Trust, Daughter, Habit, Given To Fly, Immortality, Save You, Rearviewmirror
Encore 1: I Got Shit, Crazy Mary, I Believe In Miracles (w/Marky Ramone), Alive
Encore 2: Elderly Woman, Corduroy, Blood, Baba O'Riley, Yellow Ledbetter

the floor - a journey through heaven and hell - prologue

tô em Poa. o show ontem foi uma loucura. fiquei na grade (tô cheia de hematomas nos braços e no peito), vi tudo tão de perto que é surreal. por incrível que pareça a ficha ainda não caiu totalmente. não chorei durante o show, parecia que eu estava anestesiada. às vezes ficava de boca aberta olhando pro Ed. às vezes pulava que nem uma doida, nem ligando que tinha um ou dois caras me sarrando o tempo todo . agora as lembranças vêm chegando de vez em quando e eu choro. muito esquisito. foram 2:40 de show. o Stone usou a camiseta do Restless Souls!surreal, por enquanto é o que eu posso dizer. não consigo lembrar a ordem do setlist, é estranho. mas tenho certeza de que eles abriram com Long Road! então, o que me lembro (alguém completa se lembrar):
long road
even flow
animal
habit
given to fly
i got shit
daughter
betterman
cropduster
save you
blood
rvm
crazy mary (o André foi o primeiro a beber o vinho!)
solat
immortality
corduroy
grievance
alive (no encore)
jeremy
small town
(no encore)
i believe in miracles (com Marki Ramone na bateria!)
baba o'riley
yellow ledbetter
estou indo hoje pra Curitiba. amanhã tem mais. i'm still alive!

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i'm in Poa. the show yesterday was crazy. i was in the rail (i'm full of bruises in the arms and the chest), i saw everything so of close that it's surreal. as strange as it may seem, the token has not dropped completely yet. i did not cry during the show, i was numb. sometimes i was looking at Ed with my mouth open . sometimes i jumped like crazy, regardless to the fact that one or two guys were rubbing me allthe time :))) now the memories come every now and then and i cry. it was a 2:40 hour show. Stone wore the t-shirt of the Restless Souls! surreal, for the time being it is what i can say. i can't remember the order of setlist, it's strange but i am certain of that they opened with Long Road! then, what i remember (somebody complete it if remember):

long road
even flow
animal
habit
given to fly
i got shit
daughter
betterman
cropduster
save you
blood
rvm
crazy mary (André - Restless Souls was the first to drink the wine!)
solat
immortality
corduroy
grievance
alive (no encore)
jeremy
small town
(no encore)
i believe in miracles (with Marki Ramone on drums!)
baba o'riley
yellow ledbetter

i'm going to Curitiba today . there's more tomorrow . i'm still alive!

for an angel - crazy # 5

crazy # 5 (by deav)
Rio, Nov 2005
(for an angel – just lyrics)

i’m so happy
why i cry
every time
i hear you play?

if i’m happy
why i weep
every night
before i sleep?

when i’m happy
why i scream
if you come
into my dream?

i’m so crazy
am i glad
or am i sad?
don’t know…

if i’m so sad
why i laugh
every time
i hear you sing?

and if i’m sad
why i smile
every day
when i wake?

and i’m so sad
why enjoy
every line
of your chord?

i’m so crazy
am i sad
or am i glad ?
don’t know…

* * *

for an angel - more

more (by deav)
Rio, Nov 2005
(for an angel – just lyrics)

a thousand songs
yet i long
for the songs i can’t hear

a million words
yet i long
for the ones left unsaid

so much i know
but it’s
what i don’t know that i fear

so much i feel
yet i long
for what’s hiding in your head

more, more
i wanna read the line you scratched out
more, more
behind the silence i wanna hear the shout

more, more
the more i reach up the more i fall
more, more
though in the end i may lose it all

* * *

for an angel - crazy # 4

crazy # 4 ( by deav)
Rio, Nov 2005
for an angel

crazy, crazy
you drive me crazy
the way you come
the way you don't
just let me go
i have to work but i'm so
lazy, lazy
i feel so lazy

you play this wicked song
i fall under your spell
there is no right or wrong
i think i'll burn in hell

then i begin to strip
but i'm already naked
and though i try to hide
i know that i can't fake it

crazy, crazy
you drive me crazy
the way you say
the way you don't
please, let me go
i try to see but all is
hazy, hazy
my mind is hazy

one cigarette's not enough
i light one in the other
one song is not enough
i have to write another

immersed in the considerations
i cannot figure this out
a box of contradictions
i wish i could just shout!

crazy...

* * *

for an angel - confusion

confusion (by deav)
Rio, Nov 2005
for an angel

i had made up my mind
this was a one side thing
something belonging in dreams
just a dream, sweet and kind

all of a sudden it's all strange
somehow i feel i'm doing wrong
that i no longer belong
i wonder what the fuck has changed

i wish i knew what's going on
if there is nothing there, so why?
many tears i've yet to cry
somehow i feel i should have known
better...

inspiration for a song
that's all i wished to get
dry my eyes often wet
it was worth for the sake of a song

all i have is confusion
how can i comfort my heart?
i should have known from the start
that's what you get from illusion

i wish i knew what's going on
if there was nothing there, so why?
many tears i've yet to cry
somehow i feel i should have known
better...
better...

* * *

for an angel - sweet surprise

sweet surprise (by deav)
Rio, Nov 2005
for an angel

the days i can bear
sort of…
there’s sun or there’s rain
there’s work to be done to ease the pain

there’s phone calls to make
there’s e-mails to send
there’s papers to analyze
as the hours pass slowly by

and there’s always the chance
that you’ll drop by
there’s always a chance
of something funny to laugh about
and a sweet romance
may come as a sweet surprise

the nights are worse
it’s when the moon shines
it’s when the lights go out
it’s when my heart begin to shout

yet i long for the nights
though my feet keep on shaking
it’s the time when i can dream
play a game that i can win

and there’s always the chance
that you’ll drop by
in a dream of romance
a love that i can dream about
and there’s always a chance
of a sweet surprise

* * *

for an angel - insomnia

insomnia (by deav)
Rio, Nov 2005
for an angel
(just lyrics)

time and again i go to bed
but in the sky the full moon
shines bright upon my room
thoughts restless in my head

i stand up, write these words
try to wash away the gloom
but the pain that grabs my womb
leaves me hopeless between worlds

oh, dawn is made for sleep
but it seems i am doomed
to be awake in this room
holding tears i cannot weep

you at dawn keep me awake
the whirling smoke like in a loom
weaves a fine lace gone too soon
like the peace i cannot fake

oh, how i wish i could just sleep
turn off the blazing moon
find a way to heal the wound
give my heart a chance to weep

but once again i go to bed
still in the sky the full moon
shines cruel in my room
thoughts spinning in my head

* * *

for an angel - poison

poison (by deav)
Rio, Nov 2005
for an angel

for so long i’ve been undead
but somehow i came to be
i wonder how can it be
sip the poison and be glad?

get me high, get me low
enjoy the sickness and the pain
i long to taste poison again
addicted i risk my soul

i am lost, i am mad
i’m drenched in tears and wine
i don’t remember the past time
i don’t miss what i had

for i long for what i know
has turned my mind insane
may break my heart all the same
but maybe save my soul

* * *

for an angel - silent scream

silent scream (by deav)
Rio, Nov 2005
for an angel
(just lyrics)

words, words, words surround me
words spinning in my head
words wait to find a room
in the stream that flows through me

words, words, words inside me
words blossom in my head
words dance under the moon
in the seams beneath my feet

words, words, words that hurt me
instead of tears it’s words i shed
words will come together soon
to bleed the visions out of me

words, words, words that read me
words that come from you instead
leave me naked in my room
as i dream they were for me

words, words, words that heal me
words from heaven, words blessed
words echo from dawn to noon
tell me there is hope for me

… “and the rest is silence”
the silence where i scream
out of words, cherish reliance
they were for me, i dare to dream

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RM writers' prompt V

daily

walk the same path
when there's heat it is dry
step on flowers that smell bad
dry on the same path

day after day
straight ahead
at the end another way
the same thing in my head

the length of a cigarrete
that's all that it takes
at the end i wish to cry
the same path still dry

zigzag around the dirt
i try to avoid the hurt
hurt myself i move ahead
the same thing in my head

* * *
walk the same path
when it rains it is wet
step on flowers that smell bad
wet on the same path

night after night
straight ahead
at the start there's a light
the same thing in my head

the length of a cigarrete
that's all that it takes
at the end where i get
the same path still wet

zigzag to avoid i try
another lonely passer-by
alone myself i move ahead
the same thing in my head

for an angel - stay

stay (by deav)
Rio, Out 2005
(?)

i know you’ve been
fighting time
and things that keep us both apart
it matters not
how hard you’ve tried
somehow you’ve managed to come by

i know it won’t be for long
but at last you’re here
for the length of a song
i just wish that you could
stay
leave it all behind
stay
follow your heart not your mind
stay
right here in my arms

i know you're not
playing time
i know the feeling in your heart
some peace of mind
so hard you’ve tried
i know it all right from the start

i know soon you’ll be gone
but at least you’re here
for the length of a song
i just wish that you could
stay
with an open mind
stay
oh, my angel, you’re so kind
stay
right here in my arms

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RM writers' prompt IV

if my thoughts could walk
they would stop crawling
and run to where you are

if my thoughts could jump
they would jump high
to reach your mind

if my thoughts could fly
they’d spread their wings
right towards your heart

if my thoughts could swim
i’d watch as they walk
babbling into the sea

if my thoughts could take
me to you or bring
you to me… what if?