messing up

man!!??!! one of those days you wish you had stayed in bed! family... no matter how old you are, if you pay your own bills, if you live miles away, this energy, this scent, it reaches you and makes you feel down, all that crap you grew up with comes back to haunt you... fuck! and work... days like these make you feel like you were caught in the middle of a spider web, this net of litlle powers layered upon each other, and you just want to fucking work to earn the devil's gold that i'll keep you alive at some level of decency. why on earth should your computer freeze just when you need it the most, in a day like this? i need boxing classes! know for how long i've been trying to publish this very post? aaarrrrgggghhhhh! (sorry for the bad language)