has met me halfway: an empty e-mail box. man, i feel lonely. in the last couple of years i've been learning the difference between alone and lonely. definitely, lonely is much worse. you're surrounded by people that you love and yet you devaluate their presence, as if they weren't there, or worse, as if they didn't matter, they were not enough. though you feel like crap, that's, bottomline, the summit of selfishness, of egocentrism (if this word exists... whatever). so, i feel twice as bad. one life saver, though: i got my Buffy Sainte-Marie album and i'm totally blown away by "God is alive/Magic is afoot". it makes me cry everytime. i have to sing that song!
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