the awakening - vilify

vilify (by deav)
Rio, Mar - Abr 2003)
(the awakening)

bring it on
it’s not that i am strong
i know you’re gonna come anyway
go on
your work is almost done
i know you’ve spared me some
more bad things

my face is on the ground
i guess i can’t go deeper than this
what are you waiting for
the final strike’s the sweeter
i won’t resist

vilify me, you can’t satisfy me
mystify me, you can’t simplify me
come on, you just can’t deny me
the look on your face
when you’re finished with me
and i smile … back, smile… back

can’t you see, you can smash me
but not what i am
i’m a child of the stars
you can grind me
but my essence will rise
i’ll rise!

* * *

harvest (?) - blossom

blossom (by deav)
Rio, Mar 2003
(harvest?)

hey, baby
i guess it’s been so long since we last met
maybe this time will be better
so let’s just hope for the best

i think i’ll never be
ready enough for you
through time i know i haven’t been
good enough for you

‘cause i know everything
i don’t know anything
there’re too many layers to burn
before i can unwrap my soul
i know everything
i don’t know anything
there’re too many pulled strings to cut
before i can untie my soul

hey, baby
the seed of love‘s been sown
let it blossom
maybe this life
will be a good past life for the next
(who knows)

i think i’ll never be ….

‘cause i know everything ….

be welcome
i’m here
with arms wide open…

* * *

the awakening - march 2003

___/____/____ (march 2003) (by deav)
Rio, Mar 2003
(the awakening)

and the world’s at war again…
my daddy says the stupid ones
do stupid things three times in a roll
before they understand
either there’re too many stupid ones
or their stupidity can’t have an end

so the world’s at war again…
children will get motherless again
and die alone
flowers will be stepped upon the battle field
and be soaked up with tears and blood
exchanging human lives and souls
for little drops of black gold

so i ask, why?
we’re all together on the same old blue balloon
floating in the endless space
there’s nowhere else to escape

so the world’s at war again…
while they drop the bombs from high above
they cannot see the enemy’s eyes
‘cause if only they could
they’d see beyond the color of the skin
and the way he worships god
that he’s just another man
a brother in the universal home

so i ask, why?
we’re all together on the same old blue balloon
floating in the endless space
there’s nowhere else to escape

* * *

exposed - measure love

measure love (by deav)
Rio, Mar 2003
exposed

if … you…cared
you could see by my swollen eyes
i’ve been crying
crying all night
if you cared
you’d realize i’ve been crying
over no-one else but you, that’s right
but i know, i’m sure
you couldn’t care less than you already do

you said i didn’t love you enough
‘cause i didn’t grab my heart out
to give it to you
you said i didn’t love you enough
‘cause i didn’t grab my soul off
to give it to you

but how do you measure love?
how do you measure love?
by inches, by grams?
or by the amount of pain
that’s left behind when love is gone?
if it’s so, if it’s so, if it’s so
i guess i loved too much

* * *

harvest (?) - mirror

mirror (by deav)
Rio, Jul 2004
(harvest ?)

boy’s thinking about
what it is to be aging
he asks grandma, she says
it’s like being eighteen
in a body that’s decaying
(boy thinks to himself)
she must be losing her mind
it can’t be like that
i don’t believe it
but years from now
he sees his face in the mirror
and says to himself
i know what you mean…

father’s talking about
the end of the party
what comes next doesn’t matter
and how the choices you’ve made
make you a slave
like sleepwalking
(daughter thinks to herself)
he must be losing his mind
it can’t be like that
i will be different
but years from now
she sees her face in the mirror
and says to herself
i know what you mean…

baby’s talking about
when she carried her dad
in her arms
daddy laughs to himself
dad is too big for you
it’s the other way around
(daddy thinks to himself)
she must be playing my mind
it can’t be like that
i don’t believe it
but years from now
he sees his face in the mirror
and says to himself
i know what you mean…